Good afternoon……….New day same drive but harder push. Wake up get up. Let’s go what’s your reason for getting up. If you want it get off your ass  and go get it. Nobody’s gonna give it to you. It’s called activation if you don’t activate you will always break. When you wake up don’t look at your phone for the first hour ,look at you and focus on your direction. A person can learn things if you don’t look into read watch videos search on it. Turning off the TV is not the ending of the world it’s a step for the beginning of your life. less time on your phone isnt keeping you away from enjoying things investing to much time is. Don’t worry about failing cause you gonna fail over and over. You gotta have that beast that can’t nobody stop me . NO can’t are words that don’t exist. Removing Toxic people like friends old flames married men/women that you sleep with or talk on a secret level. Like with reality shows facebook. Every time you turn it on you paying they bills hell nobody paying yours. Like with family feed them with a long handle spoon cause they will stop you also just cause their family doesn’t mean their not Toxic. Set small goals and when you get that done set even higher goals. Making process you have to loss sleep go through whatever sweat hurt if it was easy then you would of already done it. Age doesn’t mean nothing but more reason to grind. You have a purpose only you can fulfill. Need help get up early workout after work. Cause if your job nees you there you would be there. Like Martin Luther king said you can’t run then walk you cant walk crawl  can’t crawl then roll just don’t stop movement cause with movement you get progress. You have to risk in order to grow you can’t grow then you can’t be happy and if can’t be happy then what else is there.  Excuses just a way for a person to die faster. Motivate somebody you know and share this post .Let’s get it!!!!!!




Staring into the air like it’s visible to the sight

Going 100 mph , heart rate is the speed of light

Mind is black thoughts are haze in great lack

Finger directed to go slow but not to go back

Eyes get low and swollen my heart is golden

But my patients has just been ripped and stolen

Don’t know which road leads straight

But my road will not crack or break

Only be smoothed once I take the next step

Nothing holding me but my own blinded self

Thinking to the other side of the head

Right left don’t matter still on my last leg

How you feel is not what you think

Only what you see but what you know

Time to move but my moves will be solid but make since and talk every step slow.




We meet someone and says we was a match made in heaven

but we be so blind in that new fresh thing that we have

that we don’t see the bumps and detours in life we only see as far as we can see

Once everything hits the fan most people wanna jump ship

but that the real reason your in it, cause you don’t see the hardship

once you see the trouble hits triples and double

they wanna leave cause of the consistence struggle

The picture is always painted you just have to see it

most people don’t like to see it, they then they wanna regret

and say I wish, I never, but there is no button that says reset.

Either your in or your out, relationships, marriages, is a hard challenge

stick it out cause all you have to do is find a balance.


Blind behind your own wall.



In all journey you have set backs

most of us become strong because of what we learned

some just don’t get it they just remain hidden

others learn that accept your own faults

cause one day it will fill your mouth soon runs your house

people think cause of what they don’t want will not happen

but in do time you will find what you don’t want, your future it will start to hunt

building a wall is like covering yourself with dirt

you mind it will take over and others it will start to hurt

look at how you use to be to how you came through your past

building a wall will only last as long as you keep holding on to your past

maybe not the person but the situation you was in

let go and start fresh and step back and walk again.

we all make mistakes  drama and negative you start to create

but you must remain in prayer with God to always keep faith.

people and their on faults and falls, is only blind behind your on walls




In the minds of a uncontrol man

Nice and clear as the white sand

Thoughts reminding of what was

Of the past and what occured

Not the person but what he was in

Memories  Remember and let go 

But some remain and we dont even know

It shows in the next steps of life

Try so hard to remove and not allow

Then you find youself saying HOW!!!!

We get trapped in our own memory

That I show a glimps of me.

Unstable minds is a devil gym

Good thoughts and start a new film

Surrounded by mist to be what you think

Dosent mean its true just meaning that memory you have needs to just sink.

Others say my thoughts is personal

But thats only when your thoughts goes 

In reversal.



See Mrs.Mattox when I wake up in the morning knowing you wake up also I tell God thank you because you allowed us to see another day together as 1. When I say I love you I mean every letter in it to the maxx. When I call and text you I dont call to see where your at. I call just to hear your voice on the phone and your thoughts in a text.  I love seeing you cause Im thankful that God sent me a beautiful soulmate and it brings peace to my day knowing your still here by my side. I love your scent without perfume and face without make up because its like looking at nature and smelling freah air. This why I trust you its because your my peace Kathryn Roshell Mattox. Im just trying to give you something you always wanted .. Somebody to actually Love you on every level even in a stressful bad times. A person that can still stay focus on you and be supportive loyal and faithful to God and your feelings. I will Continue to do that until God says come home. I say this to you cause we’re not promise tomorrow. So I love you with everything life has to offer me to give you but Loving you is always a milestone everyday to me no matter what life throws at us we stand together fight together cause we in this together as 1 under God and he is all we need. 

                                                Love your husband

                                                Marcus Mattox



Understand the reason it falls

understand the reason for laws




understand the reason it has lessons

understand the reason for seasons

understand the reason in reasoning

understand the reason for struggle

understand  the reason to hustle

understand the reason for ambition

understand the reason for Transition

understand the reason for love

understand the reason for pain

understand the reason for tears

understand the reason for fears

understand the reason for trust

understand the reason to forgive

understand the reason to let go

understand the reason to move on

understand the reason to always be strong

understand the reason for God

understand the reason to start

understand the reason for friends

understand the reason that everything has a end.